One new niece, coming right up

Just talked to Jennifer… she was admitted this afternoon. Sadie should be arriving sometime tomorrow morning at 35 wks.
I feel like I’m on a runaway train that’s barreling through a pitch-black tunnel at 100 mph. With no headlight. Yeah. That about sums it up.
Holy freakin’ crap, people.

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on the baby front

As of last week, Bobby and I were officially cleared by RE#3 to try again. He wrote a prescription for progesterone suppositories starting 3 days post-ovulation, and instructed me to call the minute I get a positive pregnancy test so that the obsessive ultrasounds can begin.
He said that he’ll be as aggressive as we want [...]

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Baby brunch, complete!

Hosted a baby brunch yesterday for Sadie, who’s arriving in only 12 days… Jennifer’s blood pressure is elevated, so they’re inducing 3 weeks early. So hard to believe that there’s going to be a new little girl here in just a few days…
My co-hostesses were both sickly… cousin Merrill was banned from coming by her [...]

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Protected: ugly me, revisited

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**Susanna-bration**

Day Two of Susannathon, complete!
We accomplished her entire color-coded list yesterday, after a brief feeling of hopelessness (refer to previous post for evidence of organizational angst). And last night’s birthday dinner went swimmingly, I think… she was thrilled with all her guests, her food, her gifts…. yay for successful shindigs!
Today is Moving Day. There are [...]

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kill me now

Today, tomorrow, and Friday are dedicated to my dear, sweet, youngest sister Susanna. It’s 1:30pm on Day 1 of this Susannathon, and I’m seriously contemplating stabbing my eyeballs out with the nearest pencil. Seriously.
Her brain. Oh my. It goes in 20 directions. All at one time. Talking to her is like swatting gnats. I made [...]

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grief trigger

This past Sunday, one of Susanna’s high school friends was killed in an accident. He was 21, the oldest of three boys, a student at Clemson. This week has been rough. Hello, understatement. She and I talked about the loss Sunday before going to bed, where the nightmares ensued. I dreamed that Mama was alive [...]

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broken

Dreamed I was with my family — sisters, father, even a cousin or two — and yet I was so alone in my overwhelming sadness, loss, and despair. Got up & wept in the shower, crying for the hopelessness I’m beginning to feel, another 2ww failed, and the sheer heartbreak of wanting a baby so [...]

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sad little story

Just got off the phone with Bobby. Cry, cry, weep, sob, snivel, cry, cry. That’s all I ever freakin’ DO.  Damn tears are always right below the surface.
Topic of the day? My relationship with my sister… you  know, the pregnant one.
To sum it up, it’s actually not going all that well. I so want to [...]

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If my neighbor is Jesus, I’m screwed.

First of all, let’s all give Susanna a WOOHOO for her first semester GPA of 3.74! WOOHOO!! Keep in mind that this is the kid who couldn’t keep her shit together with rubber bands and crazy glue by the time she was medically discharged from Clemson… yes, one could say that she’s come back with [...]

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