helpful things

As is often the case, the deepest funk is followed by a realization that all this “stuff” I’m doing is (gasp!) actually working?!? Last week was the darkest it’s been in a while — just a pervasive feeling of utter despair with no light. September is particularly difficult…  my first thought when I woke up [...]

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control-freak? who, me?

Please pardon me while I spaz. It’s not pretty, but it’s either this or lie wide-awake next to a snoring Bobby for another hour, and that, I just can’t take.
After last night’s conversation, I was awake until 6am. That’s just plain ridiculous, especially for a girl who can sleep through most anything. I’ve found that [...]

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I call bullsh*t

There’s this girl who’s my age. She has a loving husband and a beautiful baby girl. She also has cancer in her liver. It hurts my heart to think about her, about her family, about the toil of the treatments and the ever-present fear, about test results, about what could happen. It’s gut-wrenching. And the [...]

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Protected: symbolism of the ruffly skirt

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The right place for right now

Last week, my father dropped by our house and asked me to step out on the porch so we could talk privately. His opening question was “So Sarah, what about your childhood and me did you not like?”  Um, what? My immediate response was “Did someone tell you to ask me this? Are you reading [...]

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(over)stimulation

* Disclaimer: The following paragraphs are not meant to offend, disrespect, or inflame in any way. So if you find yourself feeling offended, disrespected, or inflamed, I really am sorry. No, really.

Life’s gracefulness lost on overstimulated, overtired children

By Ronald Dahl
Each summer, no matter how pressing my work schedule, I take off a day exclusively for [...]

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The “talking about joining” meeting

Just got home from our “talking about joining” meeting with the preacher-man, to whom I will refer from now on as Dr. McK. Again, I so like him. Really, REALLY like him. He’s smart and open and well-spoken and thoughtful and patient with my lists of questions. He really listens, instead of just waiting until [...]

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oozing productivity

I’ve been ridiculously productive for the last few days. I brought in sprigs of dogwood and pink fluffies off the front yard tree and scattered them through the house…. so it’s spring inside too!
Organized the attic, which was kind of a big deal. There’s now a wide center aisle all the way to the back. [...]

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Church Membership… can I do it?

It’s storming like a beast here… rain, thunder, lightening, the whole shebang. I kinda like it — I’ve always loved thunderstorms. When I was little, I used to sneak out of the house and stand in the front yard, staring into the sky until Mama realized I had escaped again and demanded that I come [...]

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breakthrough

I’ve found that it’s much easier to be “honest” with people who are not affiliated with The Church… it’s much easier to pull back, disassociate, and perhaps even poke fun a bit. But I found that I lost my voice when speaking to those who have first-hand knowledge, the kids I grew up with. Oh, [...]

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