One new niece, coming right up

Just talked to Jennifer… she was admitted this afternoon. Sadie should be arriving sometime tomorrow morning at 35 wks.
I feel like I’m on a runaway train that’s barreling through a pitch-black tunnel at 100 mph. With no headlight. Yeah. That about sums it up.
Holy freakin’ crap, people.

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on the baby front

As of last week, Bobby and I were officially cleared by RE#3 to try again. He wrote a prescription for progesterone suppositories starting 3 days post-ovulation, and instructed me to call the minute I get a positive pregnancy test so that the obsessive ultrasounds can begin.
He said that he’ll be as aggressive as we want [...]

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Baby brunch, complete!

Hosted a baby brunch yesterday for Sadie, who’s arriving in only 12 days… Jennifer’s blood pressure is elevated, so they’re inducing 3 weeks early. So hard to believe that there’s going to be a new little girl here in just a few days…
My co-hostesses were both sickly… cousin Merrill was banned from coming by her [...]

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still kicking

It’s been a long, damn week. Things still aren’t quite normal physically, and I feel absolutely drained. Like someone pulled the plug, and, oh look, there’s my energy & motivation in a big puddle on the floor. See it?… it’s right there. The cramping only lasted two days, but there’s been a general feeling of [...]

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Miscarriage #3

Recurrent miscarriage, or habitual pregnancy loss, is defined as three or more consecutive, spontaneous pregnancy losses.
I am now experiencing my third miscarriage. I didn’t even know I was pregnant this time until it was already obvious that it was over. I guess it’s better this way… didn’t have to waste any energy on hope.
I knew [...]

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scrambled or fried?

Topic of the day? Eggs. Ya’ll, can I just say that getting knocked up is no easy feat. I know that comes as a huge surprise to everyone reading [insert sarcastic snort here].
I’ve been using the CBE fertility monitor this month for the first time. It is now Day 20, and I STILL haven’t ovulated. [...]

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a resounding negative

Yep, folks, the 2ww is officially over. Just waiting on Day 1. Confession: I unofficially called this one over the weekend… quit doing the progesterone supps a few days ago so that the beginning of this next cycle wouldn’t be delayed. I vaguely remember what being pregnant feels like, and this ain’t it.
I think I [...]

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broken

Dreamed I was with my family — sisters, father, even a cousin or two — and yet I was so alone in my overwhelming sadness, loss, and despair. Got up & wept in the shower, crying for the hopelessness I’m beginning to feel, another 2ww failed, and the sheer heartbreak of wanting a baby so [...]

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afternoon update

Thanks for thinking of Tiffiney and Sadie Mae. Just got another update that they’ve done two steroid shots, Tiffiney’s stable, and the contractions have slowed down drastically. Hopefully this is a sign that little girl is going to stay put a while longer?… god, I hope so.
I’ve been fairly worthless today — just refreshing facebook [...]

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worried

Logged into Facebook this morning and was met by these status updates. Tiffiney is the thoughtful, talented, compassionate photographer who photographed Mama’s funeral.  She’s now pregnant with her first little one, a baby girl named Sadie Mae.
Last night, 8pm:
“preterm labor. All sessions, event postings, etc are on hold. Thanks for your prayers it means the [...]

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