on the baby front

As of last week, Bobby and I were officially cleared by RE#3 to try again. He wrote a prescription for progesterone suppositories starting 3 days post-ovulation, and instructed me to call the minute I get a positive pregnancy test so that the obsessive ultrasounds can begin.
He said that he’ll be as aggressive as we want [...]

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bobby speaks

Well, hell. I’ve arrived. My first blog-fight… there are other corners of blogland that have regular scuffles (Heir to Blair comes to mind), but this is my first.
Before I write anything else, I want to thank my bloggy cheerleaders… your “rah, rah, rah’s” (past & present) are incredibly appreciated. And thank you for your protective [...]

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hsg & lab results

Had my HSG this morning. Either I’m a big ol’ wimp, or lots of people on message boards are liars, because that shit hurt.  The upside? Once you strip and get settled on the table, it literally only takes 4 minutes from entrance to exit. The downside? During that 4 minutes, I broke out in [...]

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jumping back in

I’ve been quiet for a while now. Quiet here, quiet verbally, even quiet mentally. We’ve been chipping away at Project RE, but I honestly haven’t spent much time mulling it over. And this is VERY unusual for me.
Why the quiet? Since BabyLoss #3, I’ve just bowed out of blogland for a while. Too many losses, [...]

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Folks, we have a winner!

Appt with RE #3 was today, and Bobby and I agree that this is guy we’re sticking with. Things I like: he has a private practice, his office staff is super-nice and helpful, and he has pictures of baby successes EVERYwhere. During the consultation, I mentioned that it was Day 3 of this cycle… didn’t [...]

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Visit with the Doctor-Man

Thank ya’ll so, so much for your comments on my previous post. Last week was disgusting… not gonna lie. But reading your kind & compassionate words was like being in my own little room of virtual hugs. I’ve been a horrific bloggy friend lately… all take-take-take with no comments in return. But please know that [...]

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still kicking

It’s been a long, damn week. Things still aren’t quite normal physically, and I feel absolutely drained. Like someone pulled the plug, and, oh look, there’s my energy & motivation in a big puddle on the floor. See it?… it’s right there. The cramping only lasted two days, but there’s been a general feeling of [...]

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I’m thankful that a D&C wasn’t necessary this time.
I’m thankful for the hydrocodone left over from Bobby’s gallbladder removal.
I’m thankful for Marlena & Tim, who have called with tears in their voices, and who are coming over this evening to bring dinner and just sit with us.
I’m thankful that I’m able to lie on the [...]

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Miscarriage #3

Recurrent miscarriage, or habitual pregnancy loss, is defined as three or more consecutive, spontaneous pregnancy losses.
I am now experiencing my third miscarriage. I didn’t even know I was pregnant this time until it was already obvious that it was over. I guess it’s better this way… didn’t have to waste any energy on hope.
I knew [...]

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a resounding negative

Yep, folks, the 2ww is officially over. Just waiting on Day 1. Confession: I unofficially called this one over the weekend… quit doing the progesterone supps a few days ago so that the beginning of this next cycle wouldn’t be delayed. I vaguely remember what being pregnant feels like, and this ain’t it.
I think I [...]

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