2ww: ready. set. go!

Ok, let the two-week-wait commence. I don’t feel like this month worked. Yeah, yeah, I know about the power of positive thinking and how attitude is 99% of the battle or some such crap. So maybe it’s an effort to squelch any hope insurgents that are trying to create an uprising.  Only time will tell [...]

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Does this seem wrong to you?

I don’t know all the details of this story, but what I do know is bothering the hell out of me. But then again, I’ve been accused of being one of those overly sensitive infertiles, so maybe I’m just crazy.
There’s a girl who volunteers or works (not sure which) at a pregnancy crisis center. She [...]

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New Mommies!

In July-08, I “met” two wonderful girls via the blogosphere. They’re smart and funny and caring and genuine… and they’ve experienced firsthand the heartbreak of infertility.
On March 29th and April 30th respectively, they became mothers through adoption. Their stories are remarkably similar, as they’ve been throughout the entire (almost) year that I’ve known them… and [...]

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Ahhhh, much better

Jennifer & I hashed it out last night… I mean, we’re talking the kind of yelling, crying, cussing, nasty-ass brawl that only sisters can have and still love each other when it’s over. And then we both cried *together* for the first time since, well, a really long time.
And then we made a deal:  Jennifer [...]

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my new obsession, & other things

I lay still in my bed, listening to Bobby’s soft snore and trying to sleep… and the harder I tried, the more awake I became. At first, just my brain was strumming like a guitar string – string? I think it’s called something else -  that’s been wound too tightly. And the rest of me [...]

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Feeling feisty

“I was asked to find you by the daughter you gave up.”
Does this line in the advertisement for WEtv’s new show, “The Locator,” bother anyone else? I cringe every time I hear it. The words “gave up” are what really gets me, I think. Wouldn’t “daughter you weren’t able to keep” or “daughter you chose [...]

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Group hug, everybody! :)

This week, I’ve discovered the underbelly of the internet’s anonymity. It’s ugly, folks. And it’s odd how it came to light simultaneously in two separate communities…. almost like all the nasties of the world came out from under their rocks and accessed the internet all at once.
The first battle was infertility/adoption vs. people who [...]

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Thinking, Not Sleeping

Question: How many Advil PM’s does it take to knock me out?
Answer: More than I took, apparently.
I can’t sleep. Mind is racing. I’m so afraid that I can’t have children. I’m afraid of adoption. I don’t even feel comfortable writing that, but it’s the truth. I know what everyone says. I’ve been obsessed with the [...]

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