So it’s been 5 months (almost). And as much as I hate to admit it, I think it’s time for me to do something. For the past 5 months, I’ve given myself permission to just exist in Rose World… every day consists of feeding her, napping with her, & pretty much revolving every single minute around her. And as enjoyable as that’s been, I think I’ve reached the point of hibernation saturation… I’ve gotta get back into real life. At some point, I’ve slipped from “new mom figuring things out” to “mom who uses her baby as an excuse to be a bum.” I’m letting everything slide, & while it was ok for a while after Rose was born, it’s not ok long-term. I’m using Rose as an excuse to not leave the house, to not take a shower, not change out of my pajamas, not eat healthy, not go grocery shopping, not keep up with the finances, not take care of myself or the house or, well, anything except Rose. She gets the VIP treatment, & everything else is getting the shaft.
I feel like my brain has fogged over. I think that’s why I haven’t been writing… because in order to write, your brain has to actually function.
So I gotta do something. Something like organize the tupperware drawer & clean the shower, which has reached a level of disgustingness that is just embarrassing. Something like taking a daily walk & maybe even joining the ymca. Something like making an effort to reconnect with my husband. Something like going to bed before 2am & getting up before 10am.
I don’t really know how to start this new phase. But I do know that in a few more months, I want to be able to look back & say “wow, I feel better.”
Whitney said:
At some point, I’ve slipped from “new mom figuring things out” to “mom who uses her baby as an excuse to be a bum.”
If that was a FB status, I would have TOTALLY “liked” it. :) I did the same thing, and hit that realization about the 5 month mark as well. I think it’s a good thing; you need to recover from the massive change that just happened!
But, I also wholeheartedly approve of organizing… :)
breemeg said:
I can totally relate to this and Nora is 20 months old. I’d like to think if she stopped waking all night long and actually napped, things would be different. But, who knows. This gig isn’t easy. Have you joined a mom’s group? I found one on meetup.com. That gets me out of the house some (read, reason to get dressed once in a while). Good luck!
Cath said:
First of all, I love that you actually have a drawer for Tupperware. LOL Second, shoot, if you were here, I’d put you to work picking out wedding invites. I know you’d have something spectacular in a second. Five months isn’t that long. Do you have “mommy and me” type groups that you could do? You seem to have this “mom” thing down. It’s ok to spend your days gazing at her in wonder. :)
the misfit said:
Five months sounds appropriate to me. In the next seven, you can become a marvel of productivity and accomplishment. Then all the other mothers of one-year-olds will hate you. Which is the goal, right?
Good to see you back.